You are the cause of all my pain and sadness...

   My mother abandoning me left me more fucked up than most people realize. I became very introverted afterward, and my defense mechanism became more radical. I don't trust anyone, and I expect you to leave me. I cant think of my childhood because she's there, and I get a relentless sadness. Worse yet I don't know if I can trust in love, and the very idea of falling in love brings with it a great fear and seething anger. After all, if a mother's love for her son cant remain untainted, what can?